Once upon a time there was a kid who always had a happy life, no reason or what. He didn't get time to worry about things, since he kept himself busy in something or other. Never listened to parents advise, always did the things which he wanted to do. But dreams a lot. Pushed himself to the world of reality faking his mind that its the same world of his dreams.
Steadily and slowly time began to change. Kid became a teenager and world beside him started changing. He did put his efforts to keep it cool. Every-time he did loose something or had a bad result, he used to cry, which used to reduce pain inside him and pushed to new things. Since the inner circle was small he still has the real world as his dream world.
As teenager became adult, he migrated from his inner world to outer world. Even though the migration was not that difficult, he didn't realize what he lost and what he gained. Now he had clear vision in his life about what to do. He thought it will be easy go for him, as he was clever enough to tackle any issue. As someone said, the age does show effects on person's mentality. The age of 20's made to get attracted towards opposite sex. But that person didn't loose focus for which he had entered the outer world. He tried his best to be different and famous compared to all other peers. He became successful in gaining the name which he wanted always, but it came in a negative way. He neglected the effects of that, since he didn't imagine the future.
He was still in his dream world where he had big plans to be executed. He didn't loose hope of converting dreams into reality. He got greatly influenced by movies. Relating each and every character to his own life became his hobby. Still as he was involved in many things, he managed to get some good credits also. Things favored in his way partially (which he thought complete). He began chasing another dream again.
The enthusiasm, intelligence and sense of responsibility slowly began to vary. He started thinking too much in his mind , which was holding already things in all different areas. He started analyzing people. He got to know, everyone is there for some meaning. As work finishes, all will flash away in a second. He started becoming the same. Reduced all his personal contacts, spent most of time loner. The loneliness became major part of his life. He thought he never going to achieve what he intends to. His dream world broke in front of reality. The complexity in his mind increased to an extent such that, he started hiding his true identity. Faking himself and people around him, he got split personality.
The complex network of his mind never allowed him to come out of loop. As days progress, he had best ideas to implement in life. But all remained as ideas. Finally he himself decided to come out of loop one day. Thought change could bring him back to old days. Spent an year finding himself back. When he traveled 99 miles of his 100 mile journey, the last mile started all the pains, frustrations again. He is in a path now, where he cant proceed further and cant travel back 99 miles.
He always trusted his decisions more than anyone/anything else. Never gave up his desires, just went with the flow of wind and got them. A child who was a devotional in his childhood day, suddenly turned to an atheist as adult.
He is still thinking about past, present and future. He still has his dream world, which is half broken. He still has 1% faith to travel the last mile. He has still different and unique in his way. An all rounder, still has ability to move any big mountain in his way.
But to do all this, he needs to get reminded. Someone need to make him believe that he has still the same old pal, who can shake the world and turn into his own. Bitter truth is, now he has no one to speak with. No one share the pain. He cant cry also as he is becoming a loner scared dull chap. Nothing with him seemed fine, everything is an effect, for which he never had a cause.
As a disbeliever of so called god,he lost his last and one and only best friend in this world. To whom he always spoke truth, never did fake. Now he himself want to be fake. 50% turning to 90%. Another few days, he will be an identity who is lost in himself and no one can reach him...
THE COMPLEXITY AND REALITY BOTH ARE SLOW POISON!!!!! THAT PERSON IS ON DEATH BEAD, WHERE HE IS GETTING KILLED BY SLOW POISON>>>>>
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